MOVIE!!! (or Why I Love Teaching Drama to Teens)

I’m making a movie. I thought about making this post about all the cool technical stuff or the amazing actors or even about how its hard to make films with a good message that aren’t cheesy….but I think I will focus on what making a movie does to my heart.
First of all, I’m not making this movie on my own. I got the idea 4 years ago and got to flesh out the story with my friend, Jesse. Jesse studied film and is a brilliant writer. Not only did we write it together, we’re also directing it together.
Next, we are raising money to make this movie happen. We have great actors and an awesome crew. Seriously…they are rock stars. We want to be able to make this film the best we can make it and that costs. We have to raise $4000 by July 10th at 10am CST. As of this moment, we are just over $1600 away from our goal. (http://www.kickstarter.com/projects/jessekoepke/flower-a-short-film)

That was the back story.

Basically, I feel like a dumb failure 95% of the time. I feel like I don’t know what I’m doing with the actors or the script. I feel like I am not the right person for this. I look in the mirror and wonder why I am even making a movie. What made me think that I was the kind of girl who could make movies? I’m still that little girl who grew up in the hood and escaped her reality with books and movies. I’m no one special. I am not the nicest…not the smartest…not the prettiest….not even the coolest. But here I am. I am a film maker (or at least I will be by July 21, 2012). I am a success because God loves me and I was chosen to do this.
This last week I had the opportunity to teach drama to about 30 teens from around the US. They came to a little camp called the Awakening Teen Camp (http://www.ihopkc.org/atc/). They were awesome. I mention them because they helped me get over myself. I watched a girl who had the worst stage fright, leap on stage and say her 1 line with boldness. A young boy told me that, while he only took drama because it was the “inside” elective, his “heart was awakened to the coolness of acting.” A group of kids, who are slightly misunderstood, took the stage and welcomed the applause that followed their awesome performance.
If they can do that, then I can make a movie. If they can realize that the art they create is far greater than the fear of making it AND if they can see the benefit of facing their fears, then what the heck am I complaining about?
I am making a movie. No, I do not feel qualified, and there are probably 500 people who could make a better movie than me, but I am the one who is making it. I get to make it. And sometimes, teaching drama at a camp in Kansas City, helps you see that you matter and what you put out into the world matters.

Food and Friends

On Saturday evening, I made plans to hang out with some friends. I used to do this all the time. I used to call up some friends, cook and chat. Something happened and before I knew it…months had passed since the very last time.

I love cooking. I love cooking with people around. I really love cooking with people around and eating with them. There just seems to be something that happens when you sit down to a meal with friends. Stories get told and laughs get had. Hearts open up and conversations get had that cause friendships to grow.

Jesus ate a lot. He even cooked. If we take a look at interactions he had over food, we see that there was always something that shifted. Hearts opened. Opinions challenged. Love was shared. Hope was kindled. Lives were changed. I want that. I want to be like Jesus.

Here’s the frittata recipe.

Veggie and Sausage Frittata

8 large eggs
1/4 cup heavy whipping cream
1/2 lb of breakfast sausage, cooked and drained
1/2 c. chopped broccoli florets
1/2 small, chopped onion
1/2 small chopped red pepper
1/2 small chopped yellow pepper
8 button mushrooms, chopped
3 cloves of garlic, minced
1 cup shredded cheese (divided)
olive oil
salt and pepper to taste
1/2  teaspoon of rosemary (ground)
Louisiana hot sauce, garnish

1. Heat up a small amount of olive oil (2-4 Tablespoons) in a cast iron skillet over medium heat. Add veggies and saute until cooked through, 10 min or so.
2.  Remove skillet from heat.
3. In a bowl, crack the eggs and beat in the heavy cream until pale in color and fully incorporated. Add salt and pepper to taste (probably 2 teaspoons of salt and 1 teaspoon of pepper).  Also add rosemary and 1/2 cup of cheese.
4. Preheat oven to 475 degrees.
5. Place skillet back over medium heat and combine sausage and vegetable mixture with eggs. Let cook til sides and bottom are set, but not burnt, about 5-7 min.
6. Sprinkle with remaining 1/2 cup of cheese and place in oven for 10 min or until completely set and cheese has crusted nicely.
7. Remove from oven and let cool for 10 min.
8. Enjoy:)